here's to a sentimental heart,
twenty years.
a first birthday. first time riding a bike. first best friend. first crush. first heart-ache. first joy. first rejection. first performance. first hand hold. many more. first passion. first moment of clarity. first realization. first time i felt beautiful.
a lot can happen in twenty years. it feels like a lifetime. well, it is my lifetime.
i have always been extremely sentimental, and this year is no exception. especially due to the fact that i am leaving teenage life and entering the twenties. sure, everyone raves about how great the years to come are/will be. but i'm a sucker for youth. for innocence and naive hearts. it's the way my heart has always beated and i am okay with that. i have honest to goodness had the most amazing years on Earth. as weird as it is to sum up a lifetime, it is the only way i can cope in the turning of age. the blessings can be counted for days. starting with the people. the circumstances often difficult? sure. beautiful? of course. worth the challenge? always. but my mind can not for the life of me (haha) wrap around the fact that i have spent 7304 days walking this earth with thoughts and feelings and a beating heart and emotions and passions. whew. thats a lot to swallow. grateful doesn't do justice to the emotion i feel about the people who have came in my life. whether for a short time or permanently. what a blessing to have people truly care about who you are. i mean, after all this is what life is about.
life appears weirder and weirder as age grows. but one thing is for sure, the view is grander over here. so to you 12 year old Brianna stressing about becoming a teenager...i tell you do not even stress. you will blink you're eye and like dust it is gone. with the ashes comes beauty. to my future 20 year old self? embrace. let go. fear less. accept more. love greater. do more. challenge. and just be.
as humans we are constantly in a state of change. there is no stopping. so now i remind myself over and over to embrace gracefully where i am today.
afterall, what a BEAUTIFUL thing it is to be a l i v e .
sincerely,
B
